The gloomy weather has had me feeling a little down in the dumps recently. But I’ve been inviting the Lord into the heaviness and I’ve been praying for joy. And Jesus—He is good and kind and He cares for this heart. And on a day like today, His goodness is completely undeniable. He has been SHOUTING “I love you” -through this perfect weather, through these blue skies and orange trees and these rose bushes that I don’t even think serve a real purpose other than to simply look beautiful. He shows me a tiny glimpse of the love that He has for me through the love that I have for this tiny child (who isn’t even my own)- her bright blue eyes and her huge smile that brings so much joy to my heart. The way that I immediately drop everything and run to her when I sense she’s upset or hear her crying. The way that I am attentive to her every need, no matter how trivial. The fact that I long for her to feel nothing but joy but love her enough to say “no” so that she doesn’t get hurt-even if she doesn’t understand why in the moment.
And then I marvel again at the Lord’s goodness because He is listening to me and because He cares enough to answer. He reaches down and shows me the wonders of His love and fills my heart with joy all over again. And I know He will again and again, over and over, because that’s who He is and because my human heart is so terribly forgetful.
(written October 2019)